Like a child.

There are so many things that I wish for.

I wish that I was like David, a man after God's heart. For some reason, david had the ability to please God with one strum of the harp. he gave the most excellent of worship by man that pleased God.

I wish I could hear God audibly. To know if He really sounds like optimus prime or winnie the pooh.

I wish i could see angels. Different types of angels, flying around with faces that radiate the room.

I wish I could go to heaven for a day, or even an hour. To see if they really have a 24 hour buffet. better is one day in Your courts than thousands else where.

I wish poverty wasn't.

I wish people could learn to love one another.

I wish the church could break down its walls and denominations and join together in unity, bringing Jesus to the nations.

I wish I could bring Jesus to the nations.

I wish I could change the world.

I wish I could stop wishing and start doing. I can and I will. one day i will see all these things happen. One day i will feel the mountains tremble, when the lost begin to sing of Jesus Christ, the risen One.

The wonder of it all, is that we're living just to fall more and more in love with You. so take my worlds apart and i'll be a history maker.

Take the beauty, take my tears.

Ladies and gents, once again, the big question about…

Life.

It has to be more than just the existence in the physical or natural world. What makes us jump for joy, or tear our hearts out till the floor is wet? We can’t merely be single functioned robots that do nothing but play and work. We have a soul, one that is fearfully and wonderfully made, one that belongs to a centre called our hearts and our heart is meant to be transformed into something that will bring glory to God. Truly, the Glory of God is a heart that is fully alive, as John Eldredge wrote in his book, waking the dead.

It really shocks the world how an individual, a life, can be there one second and gone, the next. All the experiences of a person, from young till present, all that he or she has gone through over the years, can disappear in one second.

The truth is, it doesn’t. Life never disappears. We were born into this world for a purpose, we are, in fact, meant to live for so much more. We may not see this, or even more so, believe this but, we impact the lives of people around us in all kinds of ways. We change our world a person at a time.

Since I was 12, I’ve been praying for an electric guitar. I didn’t have much money at that time. The great news is that a stuck situation is just a set up for God to show a miracle. I knew that if it was God’s will, He’ll give me a guitar. Eventually, 2 years later, that prayer, an unusual expectation, turned into a miracle.

There was this dude who I’ve never met. He was a friend’s friend. He found out I wanted a guitar and that I had no money for one. So he just gave me one of his old ones. He GAVE, no cost, no nothing. I hardly knew him, nor did he know me. That is the Christ-likeness he showed. It was truly God’s blessing that enabled me to give God glory through one of the only ways I knew I could.

3 years later, about a month ago, I got a message on my hand phone. Lim Yu Vern, a 17 year old that freely gave up a guitar that would have brought him some extra cash or whatever to someone he’s never met, passed away in a motorcycle accident.

I felt horrible after reading that message. I never bothered to get to know him. I never bothered to try and return the favor and kindness he once showed me. I don’t know how he lived, but one thing is for sure. He impacted my life. He changed the world.

We don’t always know our life’s purpose, but God knows it and He has a great plan for you and me. Even though this dude was only 17 and had so many years ahead of him, I know that he didn’t leave in vain. He changed the world by changing one life and, that’s just only me. I’m sure he was an extreme blessing to his other friends. When it’s time to leave, it simply means that you’ve done your job. You have been part of God’s plan and now it’s time for something greater, the real life in the kingdom of God.

In the same way, I believe that when it is not our time yet, we still have a lot to do.

Just the other day, two friends of mine were involved in a car accident. They were shocked, traumatized. They told me they could have died in that split second but guess what, they’re not. Praise God! Why? Because life begins at the intersection. It’s now their time yet. There are still things to be done here, more lives to impact, a whole world to change! Now is when they can rise up and truly see what God has in store for the rest of their lives. If you two are reading this, get ready for something unusual to happen, get ready for God to move in your life in ways you’ve never dreamed of. This experience is not a car accident, it is a wakeup call, and it is God saying welcome to the real world. Welcome to life J

Our lives are no mistake. What happens to us or to the people around us is no mistake. Everything happens for a reason. There is no such thing as a “bad event” or an accident. It is just a set up, a set up for God to intercede and to show us miracles and things that we would never dream of. Everything is possible through Jesus. Greater is He who is in you than the one who is in the world.

Everything's alive.

Days go on. Problems come and never really go. We're always stuck with that bit of guilt, that inch of insecurity, not knowing how to deal with life. this only happens to just about 99% of everyone. Where else can we put our hope in? who else can we trust in? what could possibly be bigger than the problem i'm facing?

These are the questions that she asked with every bit of dying hope in her voice. Lies thrown at her, she took it for her own untill she eventually sunk deep down into a maze. A maze of deceit and just about every inch of her self worth, GONE. no real escape... except above.

These are the questions that she asked. These are the questions that someone answered

Suddenly, all of it's behind her,
Someone there reminds her,
that yesterday is gone, so wave goodbye.

And suddenly, the skies opened above her,
cuz Jesus really loves her,
and everything's alive. Everything is ALIVE.

These are the questions that they asked with blood in their palms and sweat in their brow. After all they've endured, there can't possibly be any way out. After what the world told them,said about them, after the number of discouragements they've taken like bullets. no real escape, except above.

These are the questions that you're asking. these are the questions that i can answer.

Suddenly, all of it's behind you,
And i'm here to remind you,
that yesterday is gone so wave goodbye.

And suddenly, the skies will open above you,
And Love will truly find you,
cuz Jesus really loves you,
Now everything's ALIVE.

your wandering is over
The other side is real
you've broken through
your mountain moved
And mercy is revealed
His mercy is revealed

On The Wing.

Do you know what its like to wait 9 years for something not knowing what you're waiting for?
I went through that. and I thank God everyday that he managed to keep me waiting.

why?

because the day came when i found out why i was saving 9 years worth of cash for.
it all started when i was a kid...

I was small, naive and innocent. I looked at my jie, and my mei mei. they got a lot of cash for ang pau.probably more than what i got, difference is, they spent every single penny buying either clothes,jewelry or dolls. what did i do?I said "i'm gonna save my cash because there's gonna be a day where i'm really gonna need it to buy something or to give someone and i will have the money for it". yeah, what a stupid pansie,losers, mama's boy thing to do. but it all paid off because like i said, the day came. 9 friggin years later. [so now no one can say i don't have patience. haha]

in short, I bought my amazing, ever so sexy Ibanez SA260 FM.


To the guys in the picture below.. Melvin, Ivan, Andrew, the band that i never had. Thanks dudes for following me to bentley on that historical day. Andrew and Melvin, i know u missed futsal just for me. Ivan, the bro i never had, i know u got screwed by your insane addmath tuision teacher just so you could follow me. now thats love, people.haha. i must say that i'm really sorry it took 3 years for me to get the balls to pull the cash out of my pocket but tomorrow is a new day.

Now let's go rock the world!

and to my saviour.. Jesus Christ.Once again i can truly say that You have taken care of me and heard all my prayers. who'd ever think that a small missionary kid would ever get the cash to buy a beautiful piece of wood that expensive? Thank You so much for answering my prayers. Most important of all, I dedicate this guitar to You. I vow that it will only be used for Your will, to bring Your name to the ears who haven't heard it and to lift Your name higher. All glory to God.

Guys, for those who have never posted a comment
on any of my posts, this is your chance.
I need ideas for a name for her.
make it a sexy one.
ngekkk
haha.

For Heaven.

Adam awoke when he heard a voice. "adam, adam?".
"Yes Father?", he replied.
"Let's go for a walk in the garden.".

Adam is probably the only man who ever lived that got to have a simple walk with God in the park, just Father to son, God to man. They always say, a walk with God lasts your whole life. As much truth that is, I sometimes like to think of a walk with God, as simple as a short walk in the park.

My walk with God, would probably be high up on the mountains, early in the morning at the break of dawn. An breathtaking sunrise with golden rays that flood the sky would be there to greet us . Or it would be on a cool sandy beach on an island in the evening with our bare feet sinking into the soft sand and of course, a glorious sunset to end the day. Perfect.

Imagine that for a few seconds and hold that thought...

Sarah was on the computer yesterday. music came from the speakers. not any kind of music though, this one was different. Different in so many ways. it didn't feel like music that would usually make me get up and dance, music that would get me emo and start reflecting on life, music that would make me headbang out of my wits, no, this was extraordinary.

I slowly began to zone out, like i was in a dream because that's exactly what the music sounded like, an escape from the world into something heavenly. and no, i'm pretty sure it wasn't like going high on heroin. there was something peaceful in the music, something reassuring, something full of life.


Later on, she told me its this dude, Adam Young [what a coincidence, right?] who calls himself Port Blue. He mixes ambient sounds, kinda sounds like the ocean which is probably why he's got a thing for ports and the sea. its fully instrumental, no vocals, and he calls his music dreamscapes. What makes this dude's music special is that the music he makes, is inspired by his day to day walk with Jesus. I could actually imagine how his short simple 5 minute walk in every song looked like. its incredible.

I listen to bands who write songs that have a message to tell everyone. bands like Switchfoot question the corruption of the world and tell everyone where the answer in life lies in. but its really one thing to write powerful songs with mind blowing lyrics accompanied by incredible music and somthing totally different to make music painting heavenly chorusus coming from the sky or a simple walk in the park with the creator Himself. Music like this, brings so much more to life.

And this is why music was made.

The brother I never had.

Happy 17th, Ivan Lim Huan-wen!

Sry i can't make it for hydrowar :(

In love with the 90's.

Teen drama.

when i found out that was the genre of the show, i laughed. laughed because i thought "this so is not sam's thing" but it rocks anyhow. aight sam, slow down. what are you talking about...?

90210 babyyy.

Its damn fake. the actors are just too hot. even the moms are hot. but nolahhh, thats not why i watch it. actually, i don't even know why i watch it. story gets corny too many times. but i guess its just the fact that i've started, and i have to watch till the end. and hey, some episodes even give a pretty good cliff hanger. so i'd be bringing my thumbdrive to school the next day, asking andrew paul to put in the next five episodes :P

Gossip girl addicts claim their show is better. matter of opinion, i know. i'm pretty sure a portion of them viewers watch for Chuck bass and for the guys, blake lively. so everyday its chuck bass this chuck bass that. and a month from now, it'll be some other guy. But us guys have to admit, we do the same. sure, Jessica alba and Angelina Jolie are always top. then theres others like kirsten bell, and the one treehill chick who's name i can't remember, and hayley williams and maria sharapova and for some, Megan fox. But thanks to 90210, and for the thriller fanatics; the hills have eyes 2 and prom night, we've found someone who can join jess and angelina in the top league...

Jessica Stroup.

can't deny it, can you?
ngekkk. haha

Their thoughts we can't decode.

Too long.

Too long have we lived in a world ruled by war, ruled by guns, ruled by men.

Too long have we told ourselves, "its not our problem."

We've had too many twisted thoughts when power was given to us to rule the world. we just end up gunning each other down, trying to find satisfaction in territory, in power.

The war in the middle east has been going on since biblical times. that's a few thousand years. What do most of us think? Palestinians are at fault. Israel is just defending itself. Some don't even think. some figure, "it doesn't bother me, i'm living the life i'm meant to live". I honestly can't even put my ground on the Israeli side. They were suppose to be God's chosen nation. the ones the whole earth would follow. But now, they're taking matters into their own hands, fighting over what might not necessarily belong to them.

While all this is going on, people suffer. they suffer the consequences of irresponsible and unjust leadership. Those who suffer are always the innocent ones. more specifically, the ones who are at the determining age of learning, whether or not what they learn is good or bad. The children.

Its beyond our imagination, what it must be like to live not knowing what lies ahead, not knowing whether that breath we just took, is our last. children are being killed. Starvation runs through the whole region, and now they're being shot. shot for the mistakes and greed of the generation that failed to fulfill its purpose, to teach the next, how to love one another.

People always say the most effective way of teaching, is to teach by example. its not a theory, its a fact. The experienced older people always have a huge influence on a younger, who are less capable of distinguishing between good or bad.


As i was looking at photos of children who died undeserving, i found what could be the most sick, unbelievable, disturbing photo in the world. I saw this...

Children are being thought to hate. even worse, to kill. the missiles say "with LOVE". this is the point where they don't know the difference between LOVE and HATE. killing is a way of love to them now. they've been brainwashed, taught to give back what was given to them, death. We all know that is not the way. and its definitely not the way God intended it to be.

God didn't mean for families to be separated by a single bullet.

Nor did God mean for us to starve.

But that's how we made it to be, a dog eat dog world. full of perverse intentions and wicked desires, where younger ones have to suffer for what their forefathers did. When i see photos like these, hear stories about children not knowing why they have to run,why they have to hide or why daddy didn't make it home today, i long more and more for the day Jesus comes back to correct the mistakes we've made.

How many more small lives have to end before we realize war is futile and love is our only solution?

Jesus there, in between.